Friday, April 29, 2016

National Infertility Awareness Week: 2016

To this day, I still consider myself one of the lucky ones. In 2012 Brandon and I got pregnant after only three months off birth control pills; however, that pregnancy resulted in a miscarriage. While devastating, I remember the physician I worked for at the time had once told a patient "I know you're upset, but this let's us know that you can get pregnant". I used that as my manta and remained "cautiously optimistic" that we would easily get pregnant again. It didn't happen that way.

Two weeks before my 26th birthday, B and I met with a fertility specialist and started the prescreening process to hopefully get some answers. Why had I been able to get pregnant? Why didn't I stay pregnant? Why hadn't I been able to get pregnant again? It just seemed so unfair to me that at 25, I was having problems starting a family.

Two negative IUI cycles, one cancelled IUI cycle, four ovarian cysts and one IVF cycle later...

Every year during National Infertility Awareness Week, I like to reflect on our journey to parenthood and re-read the posts that I wrote as we went through our infertility journey.  It's crazy to think about what we went through to make our dreams of parenthood a reality and I would do it again without a second thought. It wasn't an easy road but we learned so much about ourselves and about our marriage. I learned that I am so much stronger than I ever gave myself credit for and I am so blessed to be that little girl's mama.

If you are reading this and you are struggling with infertility, please know that you are not alone. I grieved my miscarriage in silence and did not share with many that we were going through treatment and that is something I truly regret. I was ashamed that I could not build my family the old fashion way, but now I truly understand that there are so many different ways to build a family and I try to be as open as possible because no one should experience infertility alone. You can read more about our infertility journey here and check out my guest post from Julie Borm's Inspiring Moms feature.