Ok, so now that we have that out of the way. I want to start this post by saying I am not a fan of co-sleeping. I am in absolute awe of the people who can do it. How are they not total zombies? Have y'all seen that Buzzfeed article about the woman in Dallas who had the ultimate Ikea hack to help her and her husband co-sleep with their five children? No? Check it out here... I'll wait. Complete awe. That is dedication to the cause.
My reasons for not liking co-sleeping are two fold. (1) It's scary. What if you're a restless sleeper? What if you injure the child? What if you roll over and...? Yikes. Let's not go there. (2) I need my sleep. I need tiny terrorist free sleep. I need time to re-charge my batteries so I can be a good mom. Needless to say, we've been co-sleeping for about a week now and I cannot wait until Natalie gets it together and gets out of our bed. She has always been such a rockstar sleeper that this has really come out of left field and I am wondering what we have done wrong. I will share my woes and hope that someone out there reading this can provide some insight into how I can fix this situation because it has been brutal.
Let's start at the beginning, which was a little over a week ago. It was a Sunday night, I was cleaning Natalie's ears and the dogs were trying to lick her face and she pulled away and then screamed in horrible pain. I consoled her. We finished cleaning her ears, got some tylenol and went to bed. She slept through the night but woke up at 4:50 Monday morning (an hour and a half earlier than I usually have to begrudgingly wake her up) crying. I went in to get her and she touched her ear saying "ouch mommy". Once she was up, she was totally fine.
The entire day at daycare she was totally fine. Not a cry. Not an ouch. Not a peep about her ear. And then Monday night she refused to sleep in her crib. She cried and clung. We slept on the couch. And by couch, I mean futon loveseat. And the only way we both fit to sleep there is to take the back cushions off which makes it a bit brutal. But we made it work. It would only be one night. HA! Tuesday we took her to the pediatrician. I had bruised her eardrum when cleaning her ear. I was reassured she would be just fine but to never use q-tips again. Noted.
Tuesday night she slept in her crib all night and was fine. Progress.
Wednesday night I was putting her to bed and she kept asking for "circle". After a forty-five minute struggle, she was put to bed without "circle". She was so upset about this she threw up. I got her cleaned up and we were back on the couch. Thursday night I learned that "circle" was really "snuggle" and she again refused her crib without a fight. After twenty-five minutes of crying it out, I broke and again we slept on the touch. Team no sleep. According to my fitbit, I got all of 17 hours of sleep between Monday night - Friday morning. That's an average of 4 hours and 22 minutes of sleep. How did I do this when she was a newborn?
Friday, Saturday, Sunday she slept in our bed with us. We all slept reasonably well. At some point in the near future I will again try to put her in her crib but I am so scared to do it. I am scared of the fight and the tears and the toddler vomit. I just don't have the energy for it.
I am just a girl... standing here... asking a toddler to sleep in her own bed. Please.