Thursday, April 2, 2015
If someone had told me when I started this blog that I would write 300 posts, I would have laughed. I was not entirely sure I was ready for that kind of commitment. Part of me started the blog because so many of the girls I was friends with at work had a blog. It was almost kind of trendy. Part of me started it because I really enjoyed writing and thought it would be fun. The part of me that found it fun is the reason that I picked it back up after a long hiatus and I am so glad that I did.
I have learned so much about myself through this blog. The way it transitioned from Simply my Wedding to From Wedding to Wife and now to Becoming the Wilkinsons really shows how much it has grown and changed with me. I have gone back and read posts from a younger me and I have come so far. While many things have stayed the same, so many things have evolved. The priorities I had when planning my wedding, the things I held important in my early 20s have drastically changed in my late 20s. I love being able to see that in myself. I love seeing my relationship with Brandon evolve too. My marriage has come so far. We have been tested and we have persevered. It is so wonderful to be able to look back on the different adventures we have had, especially our infertility journey, and see how much we have grown and changed. I love being able to look back on those first days and weeks of Natalie and read things that sleep deprivation has left a little fuzzy now.
I have learned so much about people too. I was met with a lot of criticisms for my views on different things, especially a family situation. I was judged for how I handled something within my own family. Something that did not impact those being critics in any way, shape or form. I was judged for standing up for my beliefs and holding true to the values my parents instilled in me all because I wrote about the very intense feelings and emotions associated with the situation. Not all people were taught that just because my views and values don't match your views and values does not mean you are wrong or I am wrong. It's a hard lesson that I can only hope to teach my children.
While there has been some pain associated with this blog, I have met some really wonderful people too. Complete strangers cheering for me when I battled infertility. I found such comfort in another person's blog when I was experiencing my miscarriage (I will forever be thankful for stumbling upon A Little Blueberry) and I can only hope that I can provide someone else that same kind of quiet solidarity by sharing my story. I have met other moms struggling with sleep deprivation and transitioning into the parenting role. While we all do things differently and may not always share the same views on things, I have picked up so many great ideas and tips along the way! I also know that at the end of the day, we all share the same goal: be awesome parents. [And ladies, believe me, you are!]
The blogging world is a really weird place and I am so thankful that 300 posts ago I decided it would be a good idea to join. Thanks for joining in the ride with me :)