Wednesday, May 7, 2014

Red Balloons for Ryan


Yesterday I learned that over the weekend the writer of one of my favorite blogs experienced a loss that is so overwhelming I don't even know where to begin to write about it.  Jacqui of Baby Boy Bakery lost her son, Ryan, in a tragic accident. 

Ryan Cruz Saldana was playing in the front yard at a family member's home when the frisbee he was playing with went into the street.  Ryan excitedly ran into the street to grab the frisbee and was hit by a truck.  He was simply in the wrong place at the wrong time.  Ryan was only three and a half years old.  Alissa from Diary of an Addict is good friends with Jacqui and wrote such a beautiful post about what happened and made a request of people who have been touched by Jacqui and her blog/instagram and this story.  She asked that people share Ryan's picture and to let his spirit and his memory live on.  I took the picture collage below from Alissa's blog to do just that.  


I have had such a hard time wrapping my head around this.  Natalie has only been alive for six months but in those six months she has filled my heart with so much joy and has made me so happy that there are days I think I might literally burst.  I cannot imagine if something like this happened to our little family.  Last night as we gave her a bath, I let her play in the water longer than usual and watched her splash and smile and giggle.  I cannot imagine if those were the last giggles of hers that I ever got to hear.  When she finally fell asleep last night, I held her a little longer than usual because I didn't want to let her go.  I took her in smell and her smile and her little sleepy noises.  I cherished the moments that I had with her last night because you just never know.

My heart aches for Jacqui and Dan. I pray for them, their family and friends and I ask that you do the same.  I hope that the memories of Ryan help them to get through this incredibly tough time.  "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." Psalm 34:18.